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A different way of doing things

Alright, started the day off fairly normally: woke up, did computer stuff, went to work... yes. So anyways, while at work, these two new girls start talking about hanging out, so I ws like "yes, let's do it". And one of the girls turned 19 at midnight. and I was like "awesome".

Anyways, we did lots of fun stuff. Started off going to a park together and chilling, went to a few 24 hour stores, and ended up going back to my place. We did some stuff in my room, .... ANYWAYS, I had alot of fun XD

That's basically my whole day. The weekend was boring as usual, same goes for the week before. Sorry things are a lil' boring.

Anyways, till next post!~

As life goes on, work piles high

It's been quite the couple of weeks. Firstly, I was working on making graphics for a forum software; yet suddenly, the main 2 devs dropped out, so I took over the forum, and I m lead dev... and only dev... Hopefully I will get someone else to help me out, but till then, it's very stressful.

TEarlier this week my bosses approached me at work, and asked what days I am available to work. I was honest, sadly, so they are more than likely going to fill my schedule till I drop dead x_X... Oh well, more money I suppose, but I never spend my money so it almost seems pointless to me.

I am officially single. I ended it, but still have this weird feeling, but that's not important. I'm not the type to date at the moment anyways, I just am too pre-occupied, plus, after the summer I am leaving town for school and long distance is a no-go :p

It's summer, why am I not swimming? I haven't gone swimming even once yet... I haven't been jogging as much either, but I have been doing more pushups and situps, and practicing my kendo, tai chi, and taiqwondo more than before so I guess it's all evening out.

That about sums up my weeks, I just hope I find enough time to make a design this week; I took like 98 animeshots of Nabari No Ou, but I gotta resize them and upload them... fun :p

Alright, till next post; have fun!

Life Goes On, And I Feel Worthless

Today has just been one depression-trip after another man, I tell ya what.

Firstly, I gotta go to work tomorrow and Wednesday. And today, I am stuck at home. But what's most depressing is my current Significnt Other is going to New Mexico over the summer, no bueno. It might be for the best anyways, I don't think it's going well between us anyways.

Work's been killing me lately as well. today I was told a forum theme I wasn't even done with yet, "looks like shit". It doesn't, but the lead guy was in really bad mood, because we're more than 5 days behind schedule now. I understnd his frustration... but don't take it out on me :[

After that spill, I took the time to browse around other design sites. I saw a couple, and I simply, I don't know... got bad feelings. I have a terrible habbit or compairing my designs to other people's designs; and I feel worthless when I find designs that are, in my oppinion, way better than mine.

It's bad though, I shouldn't compare myself to other like that. *slps self*... I really would slap myself if I hadn't just recently got all my wisdom teeth pulled out, *ouch*.

I will get better in due time. Things will get better in due time. Everyone will find happiness some day.